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February 28, 2005

I am attempting not to be angsty.

I've calmed down. I'm not going to bitch about it or anything. But I won't be getting my hair cut again for a long, long time, and never at my mother's request or advice. If I want to look like me, I have to take it into my own hands. Simple as that.

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February 26, 2005

Michael Bolton says: No Smoking

So I don't forget about it, Check that shit out.
I don't have much of anything interesting to say. I ran through the explanation of the Shaman King card game because I feel inclined to investigate CCGs, but it was nothing at all that wonderful. The "Card within a card" thing with the shamans is kinda cool, but makes me wonder what happens if you get them in packs? Or can you? Cause it would be pretty obvious if you got one in a pack, cause it would be a decent bit thicker. I have no idea how that's going to work... in any case, it is in no danger of overthrowing Magic in my heart nor in the world's heart. only big fans of the series will have anything to say about it, and while I enjoy reading the manga, I'm not obsessed or anything. In fact, although I haven't see the dubbed anime on the Fox Box or whatever the fuck it's called, I'm sure they fucked it up hardcore. Heh.
I wonder why the wonderfalls... or something... I also wonder if my characters are going to have the cash for mounts when the time comes. I'm also sad I can't get a little puppy pet. Words? I'm going to bed, gotta get orientated tommorow.

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February 24, 2005

If you squeeze something for long enough, it beeps.

Just thought I'd record that bit of wisdom that was discovered last night.

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February 23, 2005

Employment! Times 2!

Awww. Band Brothers isn't here yet. I know it takes forever to get things mailed from overseas, but I'm still sad.
So yeah, I'm employed... again. Whoo! Two times the jobs! It's like... double the jobtacularness! Kohls hired me, in any case. I'm going to switch out their ads and posters and such in the nighttime, or so they tell me. I have some sort of orientation on Sunday, I suppose I'll know more then. But still, huzzah! Don't have to worry about that anymore. Now I should be able to move out this summa! Jonathan says he wants to move out with me... that, on one hand, is a bit weird, but on the other is perfectly fine with me and solves the issue of who gets what gaming system. Heh. If he wants to and can get adequate money flow, then so be it! I'm down with it. Yup.
So Sepia has gained like... 4 levels since last sunday. Hot damn, rest credit r0x0rz! I finally used it all up, so I'm like... not going to touch her until the weekend at the earliest, so that she'll have all that rest credity goodness back. ^_^ I need to start playing Noa some solo now, since she has gone the longest without any playtime, so I need to use her sexy rest credit. Seriously, it was one of the best ideas that Blizzard had for WoW. ^_^ Let's quasihardcore player like me still accomplish alot of levelbuilding!
But yeah, no Band Brothers yet, I got a job, I play alot of WoW. That's the summary of this blog post. The end.

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February 21, 2005

Pointless? Pointless. (Nihilistic sorta thing, here.)

There are two kinds of things I enjoy watching/reading/etc. One is something that energizes me. Fills me to the brim with happiness, makes me want to dance, and so on. The other is things that appeal to my darker, more depressed side. Things that make me look my own stupidity and futility in the face and say "Hey, so you do exist." The John Constantine stuff I read today goes into the second category.
I mean, sure, Constantine isn't the best guy in general. But, as far as I've read, every single time he attempts to help someone or remedy a situation, he either fails pretty badly, killed a close friend, or both. That's the kind of futility my depression wants to see, so it can point out how my life isn't going anywhere and how I will probably never accomplish anything besides getting to the next level with my World of Warcraft character or totalling another car. On one hand, recently, I've sorta come to terms with this. I don't feel like that's so bad. I enjoy playing WoW, I enjoy all my stupid little hobbies and habits that I'm obsessed with. But on the other hand, I mean, I do want to be someone. I'd love to teach, I really would. That would be something I would like to go and do everyday. But school is all... something. I can't focus. I used to think it was just because I wasn't right yet, body-wise, and I'm sure that has a part in it. But it's something else. It all feels so useless. It feels like I will do this forever and nothing will come of it. Just like anything else. So I can't focus on it.
I dunno. Obviously I'm in a depressedish and nihilistic mood right now. I don't really want to go to my night class, but I suppose I should. I hope I did decently on the test last week. Maybe she won't return it... heh... who knows. I'd skip it if I had something to do, but outside my house, I don't. So fuck it, I'll go. Maybe I'll learn how to graph sentences, that'll be exciting, I suppose.
Hopefully there's a new Monster House tonight, too, so I can do that later... also, as a random note, the picture I have of Constantine from reading those comics is soooo far from Keanu Reeves. He's a blonde-haired Brittish Chain-smoker guy. He calls cigarettes fags for crying out loud. That's not Keanu Reeves. But fuck, what do I know... Essner said the movie was quite nice, and I trust his judgement. *shrugs*

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February 16, 2005

SupraHeeroGaymuh. I wonder if Essner has my copy of Freedom Force...

So, um, yeah... I might have just pre-ordered Freedom Force vs The 3rd Reich for reasons completely beyond me. Could it be because I am such a huge fan of the first game? No... I liked the first game. I especially liked that the first game existed. But I was no hardcore fan. I only got about halfway into it. Could it be because irrational games deserves money because they self made and published (all with their own out-of-pocket cash) what will surely be one of the greatest games of this year and by doing so paved a path for niche games and proclaimed triumpantly that you need not be mainstream to make tons of cash and please fans? Well, that's part of it, but I wouldn't say that's the reason behind it. Could it be because of the special bonus characters you get for ordering? Um, nah. Could it be because, since Cosmos is currently inoperational, I have nothing better to do? Probbably. Yep, that's probably it.
I need to stop spending money. I'm going shopping this weekend and I've totally broked myself! Real smart, Alex, real smart... I do get paid friday, so I will have money, but I mean, still. I have two things I think I'm going to buy at the mall. "Here Come the ABCs" by the Giants, and some new headphones, to prepare my MP3 player and DS for the aquisition of the ABC CD and Daigasso! Band Brothers. Other than that, any purchases are a mystery, although that's already a decent chunk out of my budget of money I'm bringing. Heh.
And, um, doom.

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February 15, 2005

I suck alot at HTML. Seriously, I'm suprised the Blogfest actually works at all...

I am completely and utterly HTML and such inept. I know this now. I am completely retarted when it comes to such things. Completely and utterly.
I actually worked on poetfox.com tonight, and gods, the whole thing turned out horridly. I couldn't even get a simple stupid image to display! I mean, I had the image tag there, the right one, and it wouldn't display! Not to mention I couldn't get the archive, which is obviously important, to like... display. At all. Gods, I suck.
Here are the things poetfox.com needs to do.
1) It needs to display today's installment on the main page, with the ability to login to your account and comment on it.
2) It needs to have an archive that sorts by Category and displays entires with only the comment link at the bottom of each one there in reverse chronological order so that one can read the archive in a way that doesn't drive one insane.
3) It needs to be easily updated, so that I will update it every weekday, as per the plan.
That doesn't sound too hard, does it? But, of course, I suck so bad, it will never, ever happen under my power... *sighs*
Buchhiet just showed me this. That's very nice. I'm seriously going to use it, I want to make sure I remember these!
But seriously, it saddens me I suck so bad at figuring out pMachine. I wish I could seduce someone into setting this up for me, but the only person that would know how is Droid, and he's already done so much website shit for me, is hosting for me, and is genuinely busy and having a life that I refuse to beg to him out of respect. Eh, I dunno what the fuck I'm going to do about it. Poetfox.com is a project I seriously want to do, but it needs to get set up, obviously, which, as I've said about 30 times so far, I suck at hardcore-style.

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February 14, 2005

Oh, and by the way...

Check out the current spoiler for Inside Joke right here. It's all the cards I've made so far. There are 145! Although some I just keep in there because they're funny, but won't be in the set in actuality (Andrew the Android, Fuck You, and Resetti come to mind.)
Anyway, enjoy, and tell me any comments you have about the set so far.

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Who knew a pair of poodles would make me smile this much?

Heh, it's so wonderfully cheezy romantic... I feel sorta bad for not having anything in the mail for him to get today, though... but it is in the mail, and will get there soon... and I'm going to write him a poem for tonight... and there's one in the package... and... I hope he doesn't mind, too much...

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February 13, 2005

Random, fairly angsty ranting. Also, new fanfics, and then some random WoW notes.

New Fanfics are up. Mine sucks utter balls but got second. Go figure.
I wish I could stay up and talk to Draco until Valentine's, but I probably won't be able to... however, thanks to Monster House, I probably will be able to tommorow, so huzzah for that. ^_^
I've leved up a shitload, it feels like, this weekend. This pleases me. World of Warcraft is still fun, even if I'm not playing every waking hour anymore. Funfun. I am looking forward to seeing how the battle system from Baiten Kaitos works. I hope it's to my liking. I'm stealing it from Spaeth tommorow. Huzzah.
So I had a job interview today... I really hope I get hired. My mom wasn't even happy with me trying to get a new and better job because I might sweep things every once and awhile. Bah. At one point in time, I agreed with her, that I need to get a better job, one that's in my field. But you know what? I really don't anymore. I sorta don't care. I want to move out and live my life and enjoy it. I want to teach, I want to graduate, but when I try to do these things and my parents are constantly bothering me about them, it's no fun. As long as I enjoy my life, I really don't care if I have a superultra job or not. I want to work, go home, and play games and fuck my lovely and hang out with people and just HAVE FUN. That's it. That's what I want. I don't really care too much what I'm doing to achieve that... I wanted to make her happy and proud, but that just makes me stressed and nervous, so I sorta gave up on that.
That's not all true... it's just my current feeling at the moment. Once I feel like my life has stabilized (It's close, but it's far from there) I'm sure such things will be important to me again. But for now, no. I just want my life back. I hate living my life in a way that makes me feel I'm not me and nobody cares about me. I'm taking it back. Hopefully, anyway.
I would like to feel like I can be in the same room with my parents again, though. That's a biggie... I can't stand to be in a room with them anymore because I feel like they're going to pin me down and then just talk about how much I embarrass them or let them down. I run away, I plan things so I'm not there... I don't want to be near them because I don't want them to do that. I'd like to talk and be close. But they don't care about what I consider important in my life... I can't even tell them I have a wonderful boyfriend because I'm sure they'd freak out and ban me from the computer or something stupid...
Bah, I'm just... annoyed... with everything right now.
Lovely, I'm sorry your Valentine's Gift is going to be so late, but I do hope you like it... and I think I'm going to get you something for White Day, to make up for my lateness and suckiness...
Um, and I think Spaeth and I are going to take VanCleef next weekend, maybe? That would be nice. I need to make sure I take screenies to share.

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February 11, 2005

PSP Purchasing Planning

So I hear that the PSP will be released on my birthday and will cost me 249 bucks. Huh. Now, here's the big question: Do I go and reserve it now and put some cash down on that mofo or do I hope my parents can handle the aquisition for my birthday? I don't trust my parents... this thing is going to have to be completely paid off in advance to secure me a copy, but perhaps I could simply ask for re-embursment from both parents and grandparents. This would net me close to the amount of money I would need, I would think, to cover the system. Then all I'd have to do is cover probably 50 bucks of the system and the cost of Luminines (The perfect puzzler for me... MUSIC GAME PUZZLER!) and Metal Gear Ac!d (CARD GAME STRATEGY! I'm so fucking there.), with future purchases of Dynasty Warriors and Darkstalker Chronicle not unlikely (but certianly not at launch.).
But yeah, I'm going to have to discuss this with my parentals. I dunno what they'll think about the discussion, though. They're still kinda pissy. But dammit, I'm a mainly portable gamer, and I will have a PSP on launch day! With or without their help. Plus, I apparently get a UMD version of Spiderman 2 for free if I'm an early adopter. The movie wasn't bad at all, and it certianly couldn't hurt to own. Heh.
Later on in the PSP lifepan I'm probably going to have to invest in a huge Memory Stick, too, but that's for later. The value pack will come with a 32 meg one, which is more than enough for the gaming side of things so I will be happy.
But yeah, PSP. Gotta make sure that happens. At least the DS will finally start paying off before then, with Wario Ware Touched! next tuesday in my paws and my imported Band Brothers some time near the next of the week or week after next...
Oh yeah, Valentine's Present. Still need to get that. Chaaa...
Edit: It's reserved. Eh heh. I'm also broke now. But not broke enough not to get Draco a present... but I don't know what to get still... miyah...

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February 09, 2005

Jam with them, dammit!

Well, I just imported my first game. Nintendo of America sucks, so I took getting hot Music Game action into my own little paws. ph33r the Band Brothers! Now here's to hoping I can read enough of it. It shouldn't be too hard, really. The screenies I've seen have alot of english on them anyway... eh heh... well, we'll see what happens when I get it, I suppose. I probably shouldn't have ordered it so close to the realease of Wario Ware Touched! But oh well, fuck it. It'll be an adventure! An adventure, I say!
But I still don't know what to get Draco-kun for Valentines... it's like... next monday! Chaaaa...

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February 08, 2005

Life, the Universe, and Everything... or maybe just life.

And on a random note, Spaeth, prepare Baiten Kaitos for immediate stealing, cause I know I'll beat Paper Mario tommorow.

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February 07, 2005

Written whilst browsing VCL...

Street Fighter Online is pretty damn cool. It seems to me like the gameplay is spot on. Makes me wish I had a gamepad (cause it's impossible to Hadouken with a keyboard. It just is.). And that I knew how to open ports on my router so I could play online, actually. Heh.
So, yeah, the parents didn't take my computer away this morning. I hope that's a good sign.
I've been playing lots of Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door. I stole it from Ian, who didn't deserve it as he didn't get anywhere in it. It's about what I expected it would be, which is a good thing. I'm sure I'll finish beating it down sometime this week. Heh. And after I beat that? I'm stealing Baiten Kaitos from Spaeth. He doesn't deserve that either. I wonder where I'm going to get in WoW time in all that, though... I would play it late at night, with my lovely, if I wouldn't get in trouble... *sigh...*
My parents said haircut by end of Feburary. I'm like... okay then. But I'm not going to get it cut short like they want me to. Professional but long is what I'm going for. And I'll look good, and they'll just have to like it.
Apparently Jessica Anderson (sen? I dunno offhand) are going to go shopping in St. Louis weekend after next. That sounds exciting. Well, I'd hope it would sound exciting because it was my idea, but anyway... I really like her. I really want to be closer friends with her. Not like... date her or anything (I've already got a boyfriend, thank you very much, who I need to get a Valentine's present for, and fast... miyah... what to get!) so don't get the wrong idea. It's just as much as I love my friends, I'd like to have someone close to girltalk with (You're completely wonderful, Rebecca, and I'm so glad you're my friend, but you must understand the need for someone who is actually there sometimes... I love yah, though. ^_^) and do that kinda stuff with. Like shopping! Shopping with the right people is hellafun, but I didn't have anyone to do it with. Until now. Rock on. But yeah, this is mostly to help remind me that sometime during Febuary 19, 20, and 21 I'm going to St. Louis with Jessie. So there. *blinks*
I believe Droid is picking up 3.14band.com for Pi at some point, which rocks my face. Essner and Spaeth wrote this wonderful song for the fanfiction contest yesterday, and it gives me hope for Pi's existance, even if I'm not all that involved. You can check out the lyrics under Essner's fic on the Fanfic archive and check out a preview of what Droid is making here.
Oh, and apparently I have an RSS feed.
And I'm out.

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February 04, 2005

Somebody call the bomb squad!

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock!

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February 03, 2005

Maybe I should enter that "Get Your Words Out" Wonderfalls fanfic contest...

What do you think? And do you have a good idea?

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3...2...1... Contact! It's the answer! It's the... something...

So yeah, Wonderfalls rocks my fucking face to high heaven. That sentence barely makes sense at all, but I think it's appropriate. Fuck yeah, bitches.
But seriously, it's normally Spaeth or Essner buying these series on DVD... I'm fairly proud it was me that procured the Wonderfalls. ^_^ The whole series is so great! Someone should shoot Fox in the head a couple of times for cancelling it. Oh yes.
My mom somehow killed my mouse... I'm going to buy a USB one right now! Well, after I get ready.
Betrayers apparently comes out tommorow, too! Just in time for paydays! Essner's new job will be paying out, and I'm getting paid... whoo! I wonder if we'll try to minidraft... that'll be nice...
Oh, and Draco is seriously very sweet... I... really appreciate his talk last night. It made me feel better about a buncha things. ^_^ I wonder what I should get him for Valentine's...
But yeah, goodbye.

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